Phoenix Project: Day 82

Today was an amazing day! We've been trying to get our family pictures taken for a few weeks but the weather and scheduling hasn't worked out...until today! Jayden is a fantastic photographer! She's in grade 11 but she is naturally talented! She's also accepting new clients so if you're interested in getting photos, send me a message and I'll give you her contact information. Here's a few of the ones she took:

Phoenix Project: Day 81

Saturday! The day to catch up on everything we couldn't get done during the week. Today was groceries, cleaning and gardening! This is our second attempt at having our own garden and the kids are really excited to pick out the seeds they want to plant, preparing the garden and watching them grow. This year they picked: corn, cucumbers, watermelon, pumpkins, onions, lettuce and I picked some herbs to start a mini herb garden. Really, we only have a few of each one because our garden is 2 feet by 8 feet but I think it's probably a good idea for us to start small.

It was a great day to work together!

Phoenix Project: Day 80

Friday night was school fundraiser night and I really appreciated how much work the parents and teachers put into creating a successful and profitable night. I am so glad that KC has been able to attend such an amazing school--she's doing so well and is making really good friends. We are truly very lucky that she was accepted into this program!

Phoenix Project: Day 79

Another busy day! When I got home from work I realized that we didn't have any granola bars for the kids lunches for Friday. I decided to whip up a batch of cookies--and they were delicious. As I was finishing them up I remembered that I had volunteered to bring a cake into Kailyn's school fundraiser on Friday. So I quickly mixed up a homemade cake and I was mixing in the final ingredient, pure almond extract, when it hit me that ALMONDS can't be in a nut-free school. So I had to finish the cake I started and then start a new NUT-FREE one. Did I mention that I was racing out to a 7:30 meeting??

Best part of the day? That would have been when Bob stepped in to help me make the 2nd cake for the school. He also stayed up with me while I decorated it. I am so glad that I didn't have to stay up late all by myself ;)

Phoenix Project: Day 78

I was at work today and my co-worker sent me a link to peopleofwalmart.com. I came across a photo that made me laugh so hard that my boss thought I was crying and came out of his office to check on me. When I could compose myself, I showed him this picture:

Phoenix Project: Day 77

Today I went to the gym, then cleaning with Kelly, back home to clean up and then off to see the Elisa and Aimee. I had so much fun chatting and doing pedicures for the ladies...we stayed up way too late and ate a lot of junk but it was totally worth it!

Phoenix Project: Day 76

Today was kind of a crappy day but I had 2 really great pick-me-ups:

1. Find a word that sounds ridiculous and say it 10 times fast. I like mukluk...just saying it makes me crack up!
2. I went to pick up a few things from Walmart while KC was at ballet and I have a friend that works in the McDonald's. When I saw her and told her I was having a bad day and that I needed a diet coke, she gave it to me for FREE. I tried to tell her the diet coke totally made my day but she didn't believe me--but it really did make it a million times better!

We have the book, "Alexander and the Terrible, Horrible, No Good, Very Bad Day; it's about a little boy who has the worst day ever! Everything that could go wrong does and the moral of the story is that some days are like that--terrible, horrible, no good, very bad--even is Australia!

Tomorrow will be better ;)

Phoenix Project: Day 75

Today Bob and I were down in Windsor for another ward conference and Kelly and Richard kept KC and Lukas. It was a great day but by the time we made it back to pick up the kids we were both exhausted. Kelly was wonderful and asked us to stay for dinner--which was a really big deal for me because I was so tired and the last thing I wanted to do was go home and make supper. That was definitely a highlight for me!

Phoenix Project: Day 74

Today was...

...FUNNY! Bob received a phone call earlier this week from our friend Mike. He asked Bob if he would come to his 4 year old son's birthday party dressed as BATMAN! Mike said that he'd rent a Batman suit and all Bob would have to do is come over and eat cake and play with the kids.

me: I guess this means that you'll have start practicing your Batman voice.

Bob (in a very realistic Batman voice): I am BATMAN!

me: What the?!?? Do you practice talking like Batman on your way to work or something??

Bob: NO!.........Yes. Why wouldn't I?? IT'S BATMAN!

When Bob gets to the birthday party, Romeo (the birthday boy) is so excited to see him! Batman asks, "Romeo, who's your favorite super hero?" and Romeo responds, "It's Ba...it's YOU!"

We had a great time at the party and Bob was a fantastic Batman. When it was time for Batman to leave, he said good bye to all the kids and then raced up this steep hill behind their house and launched himself up and over their 10 foot fence. It was so FUNNY! All of the adults were crossing their fingers that he would make it over--it wouldn't have worked if Batman fell off the fence! Lucky for all of us, he cleared it!

Phoenix Project: Day 73

I had an awesome day planned for today. The kids had no school so I took the day off work. I usually go to the gym on Friday mornings so our AMAZING kid-sitter came over bright and early to watch the kids while I was working out. When I came home I wasn't feeling very well so I took a cat nap on the couch while the kids were watching movies. Bob and I had planned to drive to Toronto on Friday night to visit the temple but Bob called early in the afternoon and said he'd heard rumors that the building was closed for cleaning. I called to confirm and yes, it was closed.

We were a little bummed but decided that we'd go to the Detroit temple tomorrow instead. It turned out really great because we spent the night in with the kids doing our favorite Friday night things...movies and popcorn!

Phoenix Project: Day 72

Lukas has never been a good sleeper. He went to play at a friend's house after school today and after dinner we were sitting around talking with friends. After a while, I noticed that Lukas had disappeared. It took a brief search to find him:

This is the coffee table in our living room--I guess he wore himself out!

Phoenix Project: Day 71

I got a facebook message from a friend and when I read it, I totally laughed out loud! She shares a facebook account with her husband (which I should consider doing as well because Bob NEVER uses facebook--I think he has 40ish friend requests that he hasn't seen yet) Here's the message in it's entirety:

Alberta's calling....Oh, and just so you know, I'm completely NUDE while typing this! (Well, not COMPLETELY... I've got a towel on my head!) And this is Lisa*. Not Mike*. Again, that'd be weird(er).

Ha ha!! It was so funny!

Since being out here, the question we've been asked most often is, "When are you coming back?" Honestly, I have no idea. The move was much harder on the kids and it more expensive than anticipated. We LOVE all our friends and family in Alberta and miss everyone very much. We are clueless as to when and where our next move will be.

Miss you all! I hope you're enjoying spring out there as much as we are here ;)

*Names have been changed to protect the innocent...

Phoenix Project: Day 70

I have been looking forward to today for WEEKS! I went to have my hair done...this is probably one of my favorite things and even though it hasn't been that long, my hair has grown really fast and my roots were ridiculous! Lukas was talking to me a few days ago and asked, "Mom, when are you going to have your hair done? It's been the same color for a really long time!" I went back to being a brunette in September and apparently, that's a really long time to keep the same color!

My hair is done and looking fabulous and yes, there will be pictures soon.

Phoenix Project: Day 69

I was on the computer today looking for a new bike for Lukas. He has outgrown his bike and we're trying to get him to ride without training wheels. I was only searching for a few minutes when I found one that was perfect! We packed everyone up and drove down to take a look. Lukas really liked it! Hopefully in the next little while he'll be riding around all by himself!

Phoenix Project: Day 68

My apologies again for the delay--my computer is temperamental at times and it's been difficult to get it to work properly.

Today was a unit conference in La Salle, which meets in the Windsor building. I LOVE travelling to visit the different wards/branches:

1. They feed us and the food is usually AWESOME--I think anything I don't have to cook myself is awesome.
2. I get to know a lot of the girls and their leaders.
3. I get to dodge giving talks in my own ward ;)
4. Did I mention the food?

It was a great visit and I got to catch up with some of the girls and was introduced to their new leader (who is amazing and has great taste in shoes!) Next week, I'm back in Windsor for the Windsor ward conference...hooray!

Phoenix Project: Day 67

Saturdays are a day that I really look forward to--it means the work week is over and I can sleep in...except that I get up early and go to the gym and then it's racing around trying to do everything before I have to go back to work. Today was a little different though. We had a youth activity for kids 12-18 and it was being held at a building that was 1 1/2 hours away. We had a spiritual message, games, bbq hamburgers and hot dogs, more games and we rented a pool for the 12-13 kids to go swimming while the older kids had a dance.

The entire evening was great and the kids seemed to have a lot of fun BUT the BEST part was watching the kids play Red Rover. They were so funny! (I tried to upload the video from my phone but it didn't work.) I'll have to keep working on those videos so I can post them too.

But, it was a great night! Many thanks to those that worked so hard to make this activity a success!

Phoenix Project: Day 66

It's MOVIE night! If Lukas has a good week at school, he gets to pick a movie to rent on Friday night. He had a great week so Friday night we went to the local movie store to pick something out for him. He decided to get AstroBoy and we crashed on the couch with KC and watched the movie together. I love these nights!

KC was a good sport and watched the movie but had to let me know that she's getting too old for cartoons.

Phoenix Project: Day 65

Work has been so busy for the last couple of weeks. We're getting new accounting software so we're being trained on how to use it; this means, on top of what we have to get done already, we have a LOT to learn. Lucky for me, the lady I work with is amazing with accounting EVERYTHING and she's a great teacher. Busy work = bigger pay cheque too so that will be nice.

After work today I had a meeting with some of the other youth leaders and youth to discuss upcoming activities and projects. I am so impressed with our youth--they are such amazing kids. It has been so fun and uplifting to be able to work with them. I am so excited for the activities that we have coming up this summer! It's going to be so FANTASTIC!!

Phoenix Project: Day 64

Today we went to KC's school for their Sharing Night. All the grade 4s performed singing, dancing, piano, recorder (my least favorite instrument) and a readers theatre. It's so amazing to see how much they've grown and developed since September. KC absolutely loves her school and, even though it's a long day and an hour long bus ride.

She's working on a medieval project right now and all their activities have been about that time period--she loves it!!

Lukas even had a good time watching the older kids perform.

Phoenix Project: Day 63

Today was a really busy day at work. We're having a youth activity this Saturday and I'm working with a partner to plan the activites for the younger teens. So, while I was sorting through a bunch of papers on my desk, I got an email from my coordinating partner saying that he needed to help fill in with the older teens and wouldn't really be there to help me. I totally understood his position but I was a bit nervous about how I was going to entertain these teens.

Before I even had a chance to respond to his email, I got another email from a different committee member volunteering to come up with games and help me with the activity.

HOORAY!

Phoenix Project: Day 62

The best part of today was that Bob came home early (for him) and was able to pick up KC from ballet. It was so nice to be able to drop her off and come home for the night--usually I have to drive to work (in the morning) on the south side of the city, leave there to pick up KC from school on the east side, drive home to the northwest side so she can get changed into her ballet clothes, drive her to the dance studio (which is only 7 minutes from the house), come home and start dinner and leave 40 minutes later to go and pick her up again.

It was just so nice to come home and kick off my shoes, make dinner and SIT down ;)

Phoenix Project: Day 61

After church today we met up with friends to have dinner. On our way home the kids saw a wishing star. Lukas said:

Do you know what I wished for? I didn't wish for anything for myself...I wished that all the people in the world that don't have food will have some.

I was really taken back. I didn't realize that he could comprehend the needs of others and actually want to do something to help. Kids can be really amazing!

Phoenix Project: Day 60

Today we had a Spring Clean Up at our church building. When we told Lukas, he was so upset. He didn't want to waste his day cleaning anything! I asked him if he knew who the church belonged to and he said that it belonged to God and Jesus. We discussed that we needed to go and help clean God's house.

Later, I was talking to friend of mine who had been supervising the kids picking weeds and garbage outside the building. She said that Lukas did a really great job and at one point picked up some garbage and said, "God would NOT like this in His garden!"

Lukas and KC did a great job helping to clean the building!

Phoenix Project: Day 59

I went home after a long day at work; not that the work was challenging but I had so much weighing on my mind that it was difficult to concentrate and stay focused. Bob called me to let me know that he wouldn't be home until 9:30 and I was on my own with the kids. The first thing I did was...

order pizza...

I'll admit that I was a little bummed out that it would just be me and kids--not that I wasn't happy to be with the kids but I couldn't stop stressing and I need to be distracted. I actually said, "I really need to be distracted from all of this...maybe I could start calling people and invite myself over." But, I decided that would be too desperate ;) so I ordered pizza and crashed in front of the TV with KC. About 15 minutes later, I get a text from a couple of friends wanting to come over. I know they had NO IDEA how much I need to have some fun or how much I really appreciated the company while I waited for Bob to come home.

Today I am really grateful for pizza and friends!

Phoenix Project: Day 58

Today was a
Terrible, Horrible, No Good, Very Bad Day...
BUT when I thought,
"This is it!
There's nothing positive about today",
the phone rings.
Hope is restored.

Nothing has changed
but now there's
hope
that things can
change.

Phoenix Project: Day 57

I find that music has a large impact on my mood. I love listening to KC play the piano; it brings a very calming feeling into the house...most of the time. When I started running (really I mean jogging...slowly) I filled my iPod with songs that had the word "run" in the lyrics to help keep me motivated, especially when I started to get tired. It was so much easier to stay focused with the Blackeyed Peas singing, "...keep runnin' runnin'"

I also use music when I'm trying to de-stressed and need to sing/shout something; this occurs most frequently in the car. I've found it really helpful to listen to music that uplifts me and makes me feel better even when things are challenging; usually the theme is something to do with holding on...or hang in there or don't give up. It probably sounds a little crazy but it makes me feel so much better.

Here's a few of my favorites:

• The Climb (the kids force me to listen to it ;)
• Avril's Keep Holdin' On
• Lifehouse Broken

This project has not eliminated the challenges in my life but it has certainly helped me gain a better perspective...I might be figuratively 'broken' but I'm still here. I'm still trying. I'm still holding on...but I'm also discovering joy in this experience.

Phoenix Project: Day 56

Another day spent running in circles...work, home, karate, home, church and finally home. On our way home at the end of another busy day, I told Bob that I'd have to stop to gas up my car. I didn't really want to because Lukas had been pretty grouchy and I just wanted to get him home and ready for bed.

As we pulled into the service station, Lukas said, "Can I do it? Can I do it? Can I do it?" He's never pumped gas before and I wasn't really comfortable with Bob providing the adult supervision as my 6 year old tried to fill up my car; but, I relented and the two of them went to work.

Lukas did a great job and didn't spill gas on himself or on the car--miracles happen! He was so proud of himself! He kept saying, "I did it! Did you see me? I did it!!"

Kids are so cute...most of the time!

Phoenix Project: Day 55

Today the kids had the day off school and (because my schedule is so flexible) I was able to stay home and spend the day with them. We went to the park with friends and had a delicious dinner together. It's funny because they have 3 kids: a 12 (almost 13) year old daughter, a 9 (almost 10) year old son and an 10 month old. KC gets along really well with Kat -- one day, KC told me that when Kat comes to babysit that they just hang out like "normal" friends...and talk about how much their parents yell at them and NEVER yell at their younger brothers. Lukas really likes Mike and Mike does his best to take care of Lukas. During dinner Mike was advocating for Lukas, "If Lukas eats 5 more big bites, can he still have brownies?" It was really amazing to see these kids interact together; it's like they've always been friends.

I'm really grateful to have the support of good friends...not just for myself but for my kids. Our family has been blessed with good friends and it makes life so much easier!

Phoenix Project: Day 54

This was waiting for me when I got up this morning:

Phoenix Project: Day 53

Back to the gym--it was pretty necessary to head back to the gym after eating all the delicious food and treats from Friday so I was up early to get in a workout before starting the rest of my day. After the gym I went to help a friend for a few hours and then headed home to be with the kids so Bob could attend the Priesthood Session of General Conference.

I got the kids ready for bed and, finally, around 10:00 they went to sleep. Bob came home from his meeting and was tinkering around for a while and then came in with FLOWERS! He never brings me flowers!!! Hooray for me! It made my day!

Phoenix Project: Day 52

It's PASSOVER! At least it was Passover for us! Last year our friends invited us to come for Passover and it was such an AMAZING experience that I didn't want to miss it this year!

We started the day with a ward brunch; there was a huge turn out and lots of delicious food. The YW of their ward were raising money with a bake auction. I actually took the dessert I made for our dinner to the auction so we could buy it and bring it back--just to give them a little extra money.

The request for dessert was "Sticky Toffee Pudding" and I had no idea what that was...so I googled it! Then I compared a bunch of different recipes to see which one was best. The recipe I used was easy and delicious--which is always a bonus.

We wanted to raise a few dollars for the cake but we didn't want someone else to outbid us; when I filled out the card I called it, "Fruit Cake" which sounds much less desirable than "Sticky Toffee Pudding". It does actually contain dates so therefore falls into the Fruit Cake Category so I didn't feel too bad about the name. Lucky for us, we won all the desserts we put bids on!

Dinner was AMAZING again this year. The marinated leg of lamb was roasted outside on the fire and we had roasted potatoes, pitas and greens to accompany it. The whole experience was memorable. It has definitely changed the way I think about the Easter season...we gone beyond the bunny. We spent the day surrounded by good friends, good food and great conversation--I don't think it gets any better than that!

Phoenix Project: Day 51

You would think that I would take full advantage of April Fools today but, I was just too busy! First stop was the gym--I find twisted satisfaction in working out to exhaustion and today was no exception. From there I went to work with Kelly. By the time I got home, I was disgusting--covered in grime from work. I got cleaned up and Lukas and I went grocery shopping. He's too big to be riding in the cart but small enough that he can run away. It's always a challenge to keep him entertained so I can get the groceries. He's started helping by pushing the cart...which is great until he starts riding it into other customers.

We raced home to meet KC and I started a dessert for dinner the next day. We scrambled to get everyone packed up and (after dessert was done) we headed down to Windsor.

The best part of my day was during the ride on the way to Windsor. My best friend, Allyson, called and we talked for almost an hour! Thankfully, I had my bluetooth for my phone and could chat. It was nice to be able to talk for that long, uninterrupted. We were able to catch up on the details of our day to day lives and recount recent funny kid stories!! I can't imagine what life would be like without modern technology!

Phoenix Project: Day 50

Another busy but fulfilling day! Bob was working late so it was just me and the kids. After work and dinner we had a wonderful evening relaxing. It's nice when the kids actually want to have down time instead of me forcing them to slow down. The snuggly kids were the best part of the day!

Phoenix Project: Day 49

Today was Jillayne's birthday! I was able to attend an exclusive party in her honour and I was delighted to provide the birthday cake--a white chocolate raspberry cheesecake. The evening included watching "The Blind Side" which was AMAZING and eating greek pizza.

Jillayne is absolutely FABULOUS!! We have spent many hours devouring ethnic food all over the city of London. One of our most favorite places to go has been WONDER SUSHI!! Yep, all you can eat and the two of us took on that challenge!

Happy Birthday to a wonderful friend!

Phoenix Project: Day 48

Monday was a pretty busy--it's feels like I'm constantly running but not really going anywhere. I finally got home, fed the kids, did the dishes and crashed on the couch with KC and Lukas. Lukas brought his library book to read to me. Scaredy Squirrel is one of his favorites and Lukas is so animated when he reads it.
Melanie Watt is funny and creative!! Lukas loves to read about all the crazy trouble he gets into. It's so cute to listen to him read, especially when he starts laughing but keeps reading and you can't understand what he's saying! Love it!!

Here's a little glimpse of one of Scaredy's Plans:
When all else fails, play dead!! It's so cute!

Phoenix Project: Day 47

We've been having some computer issues so I'm playing catch up a little. Sunday was a great day. On our way to church it started raining--a lot. I was wearing my beautiful black satin pumps and refused to get them wet. I made a comment to the girls in my car that I'd have to take my shoes off and run barefoot into the building to protect them from the rain. My friend Jillayne said, "Seriously?? That would totally make my day to see you run into the church like that!" My response, of course, was "I'm not doing it for you; I'm doing it for my shoes!" They've been mocking me all week ;)

Here's a picture with me and JayJay from Saturday--I LOVE this girl!! She not only angelic but she's so FUNNY! I am constantly laughing when I'm with her!

Phoenix Project: Day 46

Today I am so grateful for good friends--amazing friends, actually. Bob's been planning for the past few weeks to go to Toronto with the youth of our ward to visit the temple. I wasn't going to go--it's really tough for us to find someone to keep KC and Lukas all day, especially on a Saturday.

I am the luckiest because my wonderful friend, Jenn, not only agreed to watch the kids today so I could go with Bob, but also offered to have them sleepover on Friday so it wouldn't be such a crazy, early morning for them AND said that she would get KC to ballet this morning. When I called her to say I was on my way to pick the kids up, she insisted that the kids were fine and that I should go home and take a nap!

I am so lucky to be surrounded by good friends!

Phoenix Project: Day 45

Today took a pleasant, unexpected turn...I got a raise! Miracles happen!

Phoenix Project: Day 44

Thursdays are a good day for me--whatever happens during the day can be laughed away during Thursday night tv! But, despite the hilarious tv, it was a good day. I've noticed lately that I am constantly surrounded by static noise. I've started driving to work without the radio so I can think uninterrupted. It's been a really nice change of pace. Of course, I still turn it up as loud as possible on the way home so I can sing...without hearing my voice!

It's all about balance, right?

Phoenix Project: Day 43

I realize that everyday will have ups and downs and today I hit a bump--Lukas has been struggling quite a bit over the last year. Before Christmas we were taking him to meet with a psychologist to try and understand what he was feeling and how we could help. When he came home from school he went straight upstairs. I asked him how his day was and he said "Good!" as he was running by. When I went to check his planner he refused to let me see it. He said that he didn't want me to see what was inside. When I opened it I found a note from his teacher about his behavior and when I questioned Lukas about it, he couldn't really remember what happened...yeah right. So I marched him back to the school to find his teacher.

She went through exactly what happened and what the consequences would be; she also explained that Lukas knew what he had done and that he was supposed to tell me about it when he got home. The three of us were able to talk about everything and I feel very reassured by Ms. K that despite the bad day, Lukas has improved a lot since the beginning of the year.

I am so grateful that Lukas has an amazing teacher! It has made all the difference this year. We know that Lukas has some challenges but it is wonderful to work with his teachers and feel like we're accomplishing something--even if today was a bad day.

I walked away from the school feeling strengthened and uplifted, which given the situation, might not have been the case.

HOORAY FOR WONDERFUL TEACHERS!

Phoenix Project: Day 42

Today was a work day but I was able to get to the gym first...which, because it was Tuesday, was KILLER! I packed up my make up and shampoo so I could just shower at the gym and then go straight to work. But...I forgot to put mascara in my bag!! Yikes! Seriously, mascara is a MUST have. Luckily, I was getting low anyway so I stopped by Shoppers and picked up a new one...my favorite:Yep--I love what it does for my lashes ;)

Phoenix Project: Day 41

Today it's all about:

SLEEP.

That's it--I am so very happy at the end of the day

to go to sleep.

Phoenix Project: Day 40

There were 3 big things that stood out to me today:

1. Our sacrament meeting (which is where the WHOLE congregation meets together) had 2 amazing talks about modesty. One of the standards we try to teach our youth is modesty and it's very challenging especially with many of today's fashion trends. We avoid short skirts and shorts and we try to find clothing that covers our shoulders, backs and navels. In addition, we also avoid clothing that is too tight or revealing. Both talks discussed the purpose of modesty and the challenges we face in trying to keep this standard.
2. KC and Lukas were getting ready for bed and Lukas, being REALLY over tired and grouchy was whining about EVERYTHING. I hugged him and sent him to bed and then went to put on my pjs. A few minutes later I heard KC singing lullabies to Lukas to help him fall asleep. AAAAWWWWEEEE! So amazing!
3. I chatted on the phone with my sister and she relayed the funniest story to me. Apparently, her daughter Zoe was playing with our best friends kids, Jaxon and Rylee. The three of them were playing house when my best friend Allyson overheard them--they were pretending to be Hot Bob (which is what we call Bob), me and KC! I laughed out loud!! Kids are so funny!

The more I stop and look for positive things, the harder it is to see the challenges. I've seen a huge difference in my outlook since the commencement of this project and I'm excited to see more progress.

Phoenix Project: Day 39

Saturdays seem to be a chaotic day at our house--a catch up on everything that didn't get done during the week. Cleaning, groceries, gardening, organizing, ballet class for KC, blah, blah and more blah. There is rarely relaxing on Saturdays. Today, after a workout at the gym and a shower, KC and I went to Costco to grab a few groceries and some free samples...Saturday is a great day for samples! KC is learning all about grocery shopping and cooking; she's really excited to be involved in the whole process. After a successful trip to Costco the two of us went for lunch!

That was the BEST part of the day!

We went to Boston Pizza and spent time chatting about school, birthday plans, favorite things and enjoyed a delicious lunch! It was fun to go out, just the two of us and talk. I can't believe how mature she is...most of the time ;) It seems like the last 10 years have raced by.

I am definitely blessed to have a daughter as wonderful as she is!

Phoenix Project: Day 38

The kids were on Spring Break this week and it's been a little tough because I still have to work so I feel more guilty about not being home and getting a sitter for them (even though I have a GREAT sitter). Having them home during the day also messes with my schedule a bit too. Usually I go to the gym on Tuesday, Friday and Saturday mornings to workout and catch a class or two. This morning our sitter came over to watch the kids while I went to the gym but just as I was walking out the door our neighbour called to invite us to a maple sugar farm. I told her I wouldn't be able to go because I was leaving for the gym so she offered to take the kids with her.

I went to the gym and the kids went out for a day trip with all their neighbourhood friends. I was able to meet up with them all after and spent the rest of the day/evening hanging out. It was wonderful to just spend time together and let the kids run around and play. It was a great way to spend a Friday afternoon!

Phoenix Project: Day 37

Random funny story...this actually happened the other day but I forgot to post it. I'm having dinner with the kids and we're talking about how their day, you know, just chatting. We starting talking about Jesus and how He loves children and Lukas was really surprised. He thought that Jesus didn't really like kids. As I'm trying to explain it to him, Kailyn interrupts and says, "Seriously Lukas, Jesus loves kids...if He was our babysitter I bet He'd take us BOWLING!" Truly, the most random statement EVER!!

Today I was driving the kids to piano and they're chatting in the back seat. Lukas gets suddenly really excited and says, "Hey guys!! You know what?! One day, I was at school looking at CLOUDS and do you know what they looked like? One of them looked like a FLYING HIPPOPOTAMUS and the other looked like a MUSTACHE!"

Apparently my children are experts in the art of random tidbits of crazy information!! Ha ha! At least it keeps things interesting!

Phoenix Project: Day 36

It was a beautiful day today! The sun was shining...my sun roof was open...I even brought out my sandals and Capri's. I am ready for Spring! Bring on the BBQ and the parks; I can't wait for the flowers to pop open and the grass to turn green. I tried really hard to be positive all day today but there was one sign of Spring that grossed me out...

ROAD KILL!

Yep, they're back! Everywhere I look is a squished animal on the road--skunks, raccoons, squirrels and other unidentifiable critters. It looks like pet cemetery out there! I guess the plus in all this gross-ness is the instant loss of appetite. It's hard to think about snacking with that image in your mind--or, if you've driven by a skunk, that smell stuck to you!

So HAPPY SPRING!

Phoenix Project: Day 35

Best part of my day...thank you Jayden for coming and taking AMAZING pictures of the kids. Unfortunately, Lukas didn't really want to cooperate but Jayden is talented and got some really great shots anyway. Need pictures? Call Jayden!

Phoenix Project: Day 34

I'm still feeling a bit of an energy drain leftover from the weekend but my day was good and productive. I've been looking for another part time job in addition to the one I already have and today I had a interview! Work is hard to find and good work is almost impossible but I think the interview went well though.

I also got a new phone! Hooray!! We've had the old one for almost 3 years and it's been acting really weird. We use it as a home phone so if it isn't working, we really have a problem. Hopefully the new one will work well for us.

Stay tuned...tomorrow is KILLER gym day!

Phoenix Project: Day 33

This weekend has been long but good. Sunday wrapped up the weekend with a early morning ward conference and then home to take a well deserved nap. Before crashing, I treated myself to a chick movie and just relaxed on the couch until Bob got home with the kids. What a weekend!

Phoenix Project: Day 32

What an exhausting, but inspiring, day! Today I'm grateful that:

1. Best of EFY was so amazing. We had huge numbers (400+ kids), a wonderful speaker and everything went relatively smooth.
2. IT'S OVER (for another year ;)

Phoenix Project: Day 31

Wow--I'm not sure what was the best part of my day. It could have been shopping at Costco with Kelly; we used to go shopping for groceries together all the time and it was really nice to spend a few minutes sampling and looking for deals! It could have been preparing for our Best of Especially for Youth Conference and finishing up last minute details...I loved seeing all the youth having a great time. It makes me feel like all the work was worth it! We have so many amazing youth in this region and it is a privilege to get to know them. I'm also grateful for a wonderful babysitter who came to stay with Lukas while Bob and I were helping with the conference and for Pilling who stepped in at the last moment to help me ;)

How lucky am I?

Phoenix Project: Day 30

I was waiting to do an audio/visual check for a conference this weekend and I got a phone call from my Mom. She said "I love your blog! It makes me feel so connected to you guys!" I am grateful for technology that brings us closer together...and for my Mom, who thinks I'm AMAZING!!

Phoenix Project: Day 29

I have to admit that I was little concerned about how I'd be feeling today. Last week, after hitting the gym for an INTENSIVE workout, I could barely move the next day...at all. I couldn't raise my arms; it hurt to shift gears in my car or use my mouse at work. It hurt to sit down or stand up (especially since I didn't have full use of my arms). My abs hurt so bad to move in any direction...and then I sneezed and I thought I was going to die! Do you have any idea how much your abs contract when you sneeze?? I had no clue until last week. So, what did I do about it? Went back to the class again this week!

To my pleasant surprise, I was slightly sore but could get myself out of bed and dressed all by myself! Hooray! Yep, I didn't have to fight back tears at all ;)

I was also able to attend another New Beginnings tonight. It's interesting because every unit is a little different but they're all working towards common goals and themes. Plus, I really LOVE these girls!! They are so amazing and talented and FUNNY and cute! It is such a joy to get to know them!

Phoenix Project: Day 28

Sometimes I am pleasantly surprised at what the day holds. I had an awesome (yet killer) workout followed by SUBWAY with Kelly. Today was a house cleaning day...I hate cleaning but it's what has to be done right now. I spent the afternoon working with Kelly--it's much easier than doing it myself and way more fun! I also got a surprise visit from Jess which was AMAZING! I totally love that girl and I've missed her since she's gone away to school...but lucky me! It's spring break for her and she's back for a visit!

Phoenix Project: Day 27

Today felt like I was constantly rushing. I left for work a few minutes early (which rarely happens) and got almost half way there and realized I left my cell phone and wallet on the coffee table...back home and then slightly late for work. After work on Mondays I always drive over and pick Kailyn up from school because she has ballet and her bus doesn't get her home until 5:20. Traffic was unusually busy BUT it was so beautiful out that I opened the sunroof, blasted the radio and sang as loud as possible!

Rushed from the school home and rushed from home to the ballet studio and was about to rush home to start dinner before rushing back to ballet studio when Kailyn said, "Umm, I think it's parent's day and you can come in and watch my class." I parked the car and Lukas and I went in to view the class.

There's something relaxing about watching ballet--they are so graceful and the music is soothing--I could almost fall asleep. It was really great to stop in the middle of a busy day and watch Kailyn's class; it helped me to slow down and enjoy the really important things.

Phoenix Project: Day 26

There was a special Stake (regional) Conference held today that we were able to attend. Elder M. Russell Ballard, one of the Apostles of our church, came and spoke to us; it was an uplifting experience to hear what he had to say.



There was a focus on family, faith and missionary work which kind of goes along with my personal goals. I spent the afternoon reflecting on his counsel and became more dedicated to continue and magnify the goals that I've set for myself. It was a great way to finish up the weekend and get ready for another week!

Phoenix Project: Day 25

Saturday! Bob and the kids helped me to get the house all clean and Lukas was so cute!

Lukas: Mom, I made your bed for you!
Mom: Thanks Lukas...did you make your bed too?
Lukas: Nope! Just yours.

Kids are great!

Phoenix Project: Day 24

Today I finally had a day off! Hooray! It's Friday, there's no work...does it get any better? After going to the gym, I spent the rest of the day working on our family budget. Yep--I've been doing so research and I found a spreadsheet to help track our income and expenses and hopefully, pay down our debt. I've been watching 'Til Debt do us Part to get some ideas and motivation to finally work through a budget. If anyone is interested in an excel spreadsheet, let me know and I'll email it to you.

I am grateful to be working on our debt and actually knowing where our money is going.

Phoenix Project: Day 23

I'm going to dedicate today's post to a very special someone:


It's my brother James! Today is his birthday (and this is probably the only photo in existence in which I am taller than him--older brother, Shawn on the left, me on the right and James front and centre) and I am grateful for him. We're only 15 1/2 months apart so growing up, we had a lot of the same friends. James LOVES rugby and I have spent many hours watching him play and cheering him on. He also loves to sing and has performed in many groups and choirs. My favorite story about James:

One night, James and a friend were driving home and James noticed the car in front of them. He said, "Hey, I know those guys--when we stop at a red light, I'm going to jump out and scare them!" At the next red light he jumped out and ran up to the car. He threw open the door and let out a Shrek-like ROAR then closed the door and walked back. As he climbed back in the vehicle he turned and said, "Wrong car--I didn't know them!" The light turned green and the car in front of them squealed off as fast as possible.

James is very kind and loves kids. When he was on his mission, he made a doll version of himself, complete with clothes and a missionary tag, and mailed back to Kailyn. It was so adorable--actually, she still has it.

I have been so blessed to have him in my life--he's been a wonderful little brother and a trusted friend. Happy Birthday!

Phoenix Project: Day 22

There are a couple of things that I didn't really expect when I started this project:

1. That people actually read my blog ;)
2. The overwhelming number of uplifting comments and emails

I have received a large number of wonderful notes from friends and family (and other people I don't know at all) cheering me on. I am so grateful for those acts of kindness--it really means so much to me. I got a card in the mail today from Mary--one of my amazing friends who lives about 10 minutes away...yep, it probably took more time to buy the card, write in the card, find a stamp and mail it than it would have taken to drive over...which is why I LOVE it! Mary is one of those people that can have fun anywhere: a cafe, the movies or browsing through the latest collection of Joe clothes at Superstore.

Today I am grateful for good friends...

Ladies Get Blessed!

We issued a challenge to all the Young Women in southwestern Ontario to write and produce a video promoting "Personal Progress." As a Stake Young Women's Presidency, we got together and produced this parody of an old rap classic...yes, I'm aware that I look ridiculous and that people will probably never take me seriously again!

Enjoy!

Phoenix Project: Day 21

This was waiting for me when I got home from work today: My wonderful mother in-law decide that she would celebrate my "unbirthday" and surprised me with this amazing gift. She made me these beautiful aprons. I had to enlist the help of my trusty photographer, Jayden, to capture these fantastic works of art! They are so beautiful that I'm scared to use them for cooking in case they get dirty so Bob said that I could use them to cover up my dirty clothes after I finish dinner! If anyone is interested is getting their own amazing apron, contact Peggy White at peggyscove@shaw.ca!

Phoenix Project: Day 20

Mondays...I wonder if it realizes that nobody really likes it?? Today was a great Monday for me--I got to relax and hang out with my friends. We made dinner, then caramel popcorn and settled in to watch some tv. I had so much fun--Monday couldn't have been any better!!

Phoenix Project: Day 19

Sundays are usually a pretty busy day for us; we have church meetings which take up much of the day. Today I was able to drive down to visit one of my units and see their New Beginnings program. Basically, it's an opportunity for the girls (12-18) to be acknowledged for their achievements and accomplishments. I LOVE these girls! They are truly amazing and they have wonderful, dedicated leaders and are supported by great parents. It was such an uplifting evening to hear the girls talk about their spiritual growth. I am very blessed to been able to be there with them!

Phoenix Project: Day 18

I think anyone who has boys has probably stumbled upon something like this:

Of course, it could also be a room full of cars or lego or trains. It's amazing to see how creative they can be and what they can come up with...this particular scene was not created from the mind of my 6 year old though...this scene was the creative genius of Bob, my 33 year old husband! Bob is the BEST dad EVER! Bob gets the kids ready for bed every night and as part of that routine he reads to each of the for at least 30 minutes. I usually play the role of the bad guy and come in to break up the fun because it's WAY past the kids bedtime. He is the FUN parent! He's the one that riding the cart through the grocery store and weaving in and around other patrons. He is a caring and devoted dad and today, that's what I'm grateful for!

Phoenix Project: Day 17

The fact that it's Friday automatically makes it a good day! As per Friday routine, gym in the morning (hooray!!) to workout all that jiggles. My day ended at 1:20 am with 2 good friends, a couple bowls of Cheetos and the Olympics...I don't think it gets much better than that!

Phoenix Project: Day 16

Tonight I put myself in time out. For me stress = irrational behavior so rather than inflict my family with more of my grouchiness I am sentenced to my room (where I will watch tv online until I fall asleep). I am grateful for a family that can endure my bad days and for the power of chocolate. TV online...amazing! I never miss a thing! If you haven't already, check out:

• www.globaltv.com
• www.ctv.ca
• www.citytv.com

Phoenix Project: Day 15

Today I am grateful for:

• family
• friends
• jolly ranchers
• and, it's one day closer to the weekend

Phoenix Project: Day 14

Hooray! TWO WEEKS! I'm pretty proud of myself; I have more posts in the last 2 weeks than I had in 2009 (yes, that means that blogging in 2009 was...non existent). I'm grateful for a few things today:

1. Skating with Lukas--I even laced up to hit the ice with him today. I did not fall down which is surprising because I haven't wore skates in 10 years!
2. Kelly and I went to work for a while; we make money and share great conversation.
3. Tasha was able to pick up Lukas for me because I was late getting back from work ;)
4. I spent some time with Mary and her crew making preparations for an activity tomorrow and Mary makes me laugh.
5. Bob and I got a chance to talk and watch a movie before turning in for the night.

It was a long day but full of good things!

Phoenix Project: Day 13

Wow! Lucky number 13! The snow is falling--not quite enough for the kids to have a snow day (which they are so disappointed by) but enough to making driving...interesting. My day was pretty uneventful...smooth sailing...until Bob got home from work. He's supposed to take Lukas skating tomorrow but he had a last minute conflict with work, again. I've been really, really trying to get to the gym a few times a week (work out a bit of that frustration) and because Bob can't go tomorrow, I'm going to miss my gym day, again. I knew there was no way I'd be able to get back to the gym again until Friday, so I did the completely logical thing--I totally lost it. Yep, super mature of me. I checked the class schedule for the gym and saw that there was a class starting tonight in 15 minutes but I knew, because of the crappy roads, there was no way I would get there on time. But, I changed my clothes and raced out of the house to the gym anyway.

I booked it into the gym and to the class, knowing I was late and...it hadn't started yet. In fact, people were still waiting outside the studio and the instructor hadn't arrived yet. I had enough time to change my shoes and get ready and the instructor appear apologizing because she thought the class was supposed to start at 7:40 instead of 7:30. Lucky for me (and the rest of my family) because I was able to get a really good workout, calm down and return to reality.

I'd also like to take the opportunity to clarify one of the comments I got yesterday. Right after I got my new (to me) car, I was driving the kids home and Kailyn said she didn't feel good. She then proceeded to vomit all over the back of the car--I mean ALL OVER the back of the car. It was down the door, on the seat, all down the back of the front passenger seat including the handy pocket and all over her. I definitely felt bad for her that she was sick BUT I felt more bad that our car could, potentially, smell like vomit FOREVER! So, I implemented a new rule (which may seem mean but I think it totally makes sense). If you're going to barf, open the collar of your shirt and puke all you want! I can throw clothes in the washing machine and a kid in the tub and in a few minutes they'll be good as new. Or if the clothes are to nasty, I can burn them. But the car, the carpet, the couch, the walls and all the other things in vomit radius will take me SO much longer to clean. In the shirt = contained nastiness. I think it's BRILLIANT! Soon everyone will be puking in their shirt...then they'll be buying shirts made specially for puke...ok, maybe I've taken it a little far but still...BRILLIANT!

Phoenix Project: Day 12

Usually Sunday mornings are a little...insane in our household. It doesn't matter what time we have to leave for church, we're always late. I was a bit nervous because Bob was gone this morning so I knew I'd have to do it all myself. I was really tired this morning but when I woke up, Lukas was sitting next to me quietly reading a book. He's so adorable! He woke up early but didn't want to wake me and didn't want to go downstairs by himself. It was a really wonderful way to start the day...and for the first time in a long time, we weren't late!

I really enjoyed the day. I was asked to substitute in a Primary class (the children's Sunday school) today and it was so refreshing to listen to kids sing and participate in the activities. I had a few minutes to spend with my little class and they were so well behaved! I have a serious appreciation for the Primary leaders and teachers. They have been so wonderful to my children and express great love, care and concern for them. I believe that it takes a village to raise a child and I am so glad that I have the support of this church to help me as I raise my family.

**On a side note: Bob made it home safe from his winter camp and with all limbs still attached!**

Phoenix Project: Day 11

What an awesome day! It was, from start to finish, wonderful! I slept really well last night, which is surprising as I HATE sleeping alone (Bob's still camping). I was early enough to get to the gym and get an intensive workout, came home and mixed up some cookies (yes, this might have defeated the purpose of the gym) and headed out with friends to an Indian buffet for lunch (YUM!). I spent the day surrounded by great friends, good food and LOTS of laughing! I iced sugar cookies a stunning shade of green which, when consumed, tinted my tongue and teeth an unflattering hue!

Kelly came over for the "ol' kid switch-a-roo" and, lucky for me, she stayed for a movie. It was so nice to have a girls night. It was 2 years ago that, after a series of unfortunate events, we moved in the Kelly, Richard and the kids. It was 1 year ago that we were able to move out on our own again. While moving out here has been a very difficult experience for both our families, and I would never wish this kind of learning and growth on anyone, I have appreciated having Kelly be there with me. If there is truly someone who understands what I've been through and what I'm going through now, it's her. She has given me strength, support, charity, love and hope.

Yep, today has been a good, good day!

Phoenix Project: Day 10

I've known all week that today was going to really busy. I work with the youth of church on a regional level and a few months ago we issued a challenge for each unit to come up with a video advertising values and morals. Today we all got together to view the video submissions and vote on a winner. Everyone came dressed in their pajamas and brought their pillows and blankets; we ate junk food and watched each video. I have been so blessed to work with these amazing teenage girls! They have had a huge impact on my life and I am continually learning from them.

Bob left this morning to go on a winter camp with his young men and won't be back until Sunday. I know that he'll have a wonderful time--he loves this kind of stuff and he doesn't really mind the cold (after living in Winnipeg, I don't think anything feels cold to him anymore!) Kailyn and Lukas are off having a sleepover with two of their best friends, Tia and Reece (thanks so much Kelly!)

I am the luckiest!

Phoenix Project: Day 9

Bob volunteered to accompany Lukas and his class on their first day of skating today. Unfortunately, he was sent off to do a job in Barrie and couldn't make it. I felt bad that he had to back out at the last minute but I usually work on Thursdays and couldn't help either. Yesterday as I was getting ready to leave work, I found out that there wasn't anything for me to do for the rest of the week so I didn't have to come in until Monday. It's been a really busy week and I had a lot of stuff I wanted to get done today. I was really hoping to get to the gym this morning and if I did, I wouldn't be able to help with skating.

The memory of my first day at skating came back to me. My family was financially challenged when I was young and I didn't own a pair of skates. The school had a rack of old skates that could be borrowed. I pulled out the first pair I saw (I was 6 so sizes didn't really mean much to me) and they were 4 sizes too big. I took them with me to the rink and tried to put them on--they were huge! I remember starting to cry a little--I felt really stupid that the skates didn't fit and I didn't know how to tie the laces. I was sitting on the bench by myself and out of the corner of my eye I saw my parents walk in to the arena. I was so relieved to see them! I showed them the skates I borrowed from the school and asked them for help. They pulled out a brand new pair of skates and they fit me perfectly.

That was one of the most memorable moments of my life and I decided that I didn't want to miss Lukas' first skating day. Lukas has never really been on the ice before and he was moving VERY slowly along the edge. His very best friend, Jonathan (who is a seasoned skater) was right by his side. I watched from the side as Jonathan cheered him on, encouraging him to keep going. Lukas fell. I watched as Jonathan dropped to ice beside him and taught him how to get up again. This was the highlight of my day--these two amazing little boys! Jonathan has been such a good friend for Lukas and I am filled with gratitude for their unique bond.

Phoenix Project: Day 8

I had a thought last night that I've been mulling over all day. I know, at times, I can be a little slow, so maybe everyone else gets this already. I was was thinking about faith. Maybe faith isn't just a leap into the unknown. Maybe faith is a leap into the unknown without a parachute or back up plan. Maybe, I've been thinking, "Yeah, I can trust you, God but if it doesn't work out I'll...(insert genius idea here)..." I don't think this means I'm supposed to sit around and wait for something miraculous to happen but perhaps I need to let go--really, what do I have to lose?

Thoughts?

Phoenix Project: Day 7

Today had a bit of crazy start...we all slept in!! It's kinda funny that sleeping in, on a day off, is the MOST WONDERFUL THING! But, sleeping in on a work/school day = CRAZINESS! Kailyn had 7 minutes to get up, dressed, eat and race out the door to catch the bus. Lukas also had to rush to get ready and get to school. Bob and I were both late for work. Today was a Tuesday that felt like a Monday. BUT...

...I came home for work to this on my front door:

It's amazing how a few paper hearts can completely change someones day! Our house was "heart attacked" on Valentine's Day (by an "unknown" party") and I saw the lovely hearts on Monday morning but I didn't really leave the house on Monday.

You can't really get the full effect of a "heart attack" until you come home after a long crazy day...it's cold...it's yucky outside and you just want to pull on your pj's and call it a day. Then WHAM! Instant pick-me-up, waiting for me...not only are there cute messages but there's also some really funny inside jokes that make me laugh out loud! Some examples are:

"Love you Long Time!"

"You are a FOX!"

"You are a terrible friend. I hate you!" from Flash Forward (awesome, addictive show)

Yep, gotta say that was definitely the BEST part of my day! And to my "anonymous" heart attackers, thank you!

Phoenix Project: Day 6

Day 6! Where to start...it's been a really great day and it started before I woke up!

I SLEPT IN!!

Hooray for holidays! Then I awoke to the smell of bacon cooking in the kitchen (there's no calories on holidays, right?). Bob was up making a breakfast wonderful breakfast which included: German pancakes, homemade syrup, bacon and eggs!

Bob and I watched ET with the kids--it's so different watching it as an adult! We squished up on the couch and laughed (and almost cried) through the movie.

Bob took the kids sledding.

I watched Parks and Rec online.

We had dinner and then watched a movie with friends. Just as I sat down to post tonight, I got an encouraging email from one of my oldest friends. She's amazing! She's one of those friends that knows EVERYTHING about me and STILL loves me anyway!

Today's been a good, good day!

Phoenix Project: Day 5

After church today I came home and started dinner. I'm working away in the kitchen and I can hear KC in the other room playing the piano. At first I thought she was playing the demo button but then I realized she was playing the demo song. KC doesn't have any music for this. She plays the majority of the time by ear. Actually, her piano teacher had to completely stop playing anything for her because she would listen to the teacher play it and then play it back instead of reading the music. She's a talent, but sneaky kid! One of my favorite things to do is listen to her play.

So, here she is...

Phoenix Project: Day 4

Today has been full of good things! My house is clean (hooray!), my kids spent time with friends, Bob played laser tag with his scouts and to top it all off, we had a date night tonight! It's amazing that after 11 1/2 years it's still so fun to hang out with my best friend! I love when we take the time to just be together; it doesn't matter what we're doing! I am really looking forward to the long weekend and the time we can spend together as a couple and a family...

Phoenix Project: Day 3

I realize that yesterday was Day 3 but I didn't get a chance to post. Yesterday morning I sent the kids off to school and, because it was my day off, I went to the gym to catch a couple of classes. I rushed into Physique 57, a killer class that leaves me sore for a few days and as I walking out of that one, decided to sneak into Anti Gravity Yoga. The class has large silk hammocks that hang from the ceiling that we use to implement different poses and stretches. It was really refreshing to take some time to clear my head, relax and unwind. The pose below is one of my favorites!

Phoenix Project: Day 2

I didn't have to look very far to find some good today: I love these little faces! Actually, I can't believe how big they're getting--or how old! I know, Lukas is in desperate need of a haircut...it's actually curling around his ears but it doesn't seem to matter how crazy his hair is, he makes it look cute! And what about KC? Cute, smart, sassy & talented...she's got it all!

And, what can I say about this one? I love that Lukas' feet are right under Kailyn's nose and that he's literally falling off the bed! Then there's the little pink hippo on the floor and it almost looks like it's thinking, "Please don't fall on me!" Ha!

Phoenix Project: Day 1

I have come up with a name for this new positive direction: Phoenix Project. The phoenix is a mythical creature that, at the end of its life, is burnt to ashes and out of those ashes rises a new, young (ha ha--don't I wish!) phoenix. I certainly feel like I've crashed and burned but it's time to rise up, better than before!

As for my positive moment of the day...Lukas and his ninjitsu class decided to raise money for Haiti by doing as many push ups as they could in 10 minutes. Lukas, being 6, had some difficulty understanding the tragedy in Haiti but really wanted to participate. He's been practicing over the last week and today he completed 167 push ups!! We are so proud of him for his effort! His practice total before today was about 90 so he really worked very hard tonight!

Kailyn also contributed to fundraising for Haiti. She sold Valentine cookie grams and thanks to donations from Grandma and Aunt Sherry, we have a TON of cookies to give away!

I am really pleased with the efforts both kids have made to help others who are suffering.

The Truth

I've had a few comments here and there (not mentioning any names...Starr) about the lack of posts on my blog. I've been thinking about this for a while now and I think it's time to tell the truth--just put it all out there. So, here goes...

The last few years have been...challenging (which is an understatement). It was 3 years ago that we decided to move 3000 km away from our home, our family and our friends. Why? Most of you know that we are very religious and, even though it may sound crazy (especially given all we been through), we moved away because we felt like it was the right decision for our family. So, with no job, no place to live and no idea what we getting into, we jumped with complete faith into the unknown.

The last 3 years have included 4 different homes, 3 different schools for our kids, 6 jobs (between Bob and I), 1 broken leg and unbelievable debt. This has been discouraging, frustrating, aggravating and at times I wonder if we made the right decision. BUT, in these last 3 years we have also experienced a plethora of blessings: financial help from family and friends, new friendships, strengthened seasoned friendships, spiritual growth, leadership opportunities, and many miracles that have happened on a regular basis.

Sometimes, my dark and twisty soul likes to focus on the negative things...the difficult things and unfortunately, sometimes has become too often. I've allowed myself to become cynical and pessimistic instead of focusing on all the good things that this experience has brought me. I'm not the person I want to be. I’ve found it really difficult to blog because I have nothing to say—nothing that I really want anyone to know. I felt that people (family and friends) would judge me for making such a crazy decision to move out here, beg me to move back (which I don’t feel good about doing), pity me for our run of bad luck (I don't want to be looked at with pity or like I'm broken) or perhaps would be disappointed in negative person I’ve turned into.

So in an effort to purge the negative and re-adjust my focus, I will be starting my own challenge. I will be actively seeking the good things, God's tender mercies, and chronicling them here (which means hopefully there will be a lot more updates). I'm hoping that through this adjustment I can become the person I want to be!

Makeover

Here's a picture of me this summer at Heather's "wedding" with the Condron Ladies...I'm the blonde one!

Today I went for a makeover! A friend of mine works for a magazine and she was looking for people to go and have makeovers. I went for the before shot this morning and then it was off the salon for hair colour and cut and makeup. I went straight from back to the photo studio for the after shot. On the way home I stopped by my friend, Jayden Cartwright's house for few more photos...